I’m just wondering when ill be able to vlog again and be inspiring to others in my own unique way. My old YouTube vids were so useless I have to admit. I didn’t think so back then bc I made people laugh but I’m not that person anymore. I was always vlogging bc I was alone. I had anxiety and was afraid to leave my room. I wanted to go out on adventures but money was keeping me from doing any of that. I was stressing myself out and lost like all my muscles bc I was sitting on my ass everyday. I guess I can start off with that, tell everyone my story and from then on I can do many diff types of videos. The only problem is, I am going to have to teach myself how to use movie maker and save up for video equipment with the minimum wage job that I have. When all seems hopeless than I will look at God through this obstacle bc He is Hope! I don’t want to go back to my depressed self bc I wasn’t getting anywhere. I had lost who I was and I even let my first serious relationship define me. Thank you Jesus that you took me out of that mess bc if I wasn’t strong enough I would have still been with this guy and believe it or not I’d be married by now. I know for a fact I’m not ready for that so I did what was best for me. The Lord took my chains away, my grief, the bondage that I was heavily in, and the guilt. I’m closer to God than I’ve ever been & I don’t plan on letting go. I want to grow in my faith and believe in myself again. Only my Savior can help me with that!