Sometimes I think I may be too passionate about God but than again some Christians let their Light shine brighter than others and some haven’t even started the fire b/c of all the distractions in this world. I’m here to inspire other believers and know they should not be ashamed of their Savior who died for all! Just like the apple Adam and Eve ate, represents a lot of what the world has to offer. But I know for a fact that all of the things are temporary & I serve an Everlasting God!
I’m not sure where this un-motivation is coming from. I need to stop sitting on my butt and start working out! I have p90x and Pilates & not to mention a subscription to toneitup on YouTube so I should have no excuse to be this skinny and not muscular.
I’m just wondering when ill be able to vlog again and be inspiring to others in my own unique way. My old YouTube vids were so useless I have to admit. I didn’t think so back then bc I made people laugh but I’m not that person anymore. I was always vlogging bc I was alone. I had anxiety and was afraid to leave my room. I wanted to go out on adventures but money was keeping me from doing any of that. I was stressing myself out and lost like all my muscles bc I was sitting on my ass everyday. I guess I can start off with that, tell everyone my story and from then on I can do many diff types of videos. The only problem is, I am going to have to teach myself how to use movie maker and save up for video equipment with the minimum wage job that I have. When all seems hopeless than I will look at God through this obstacle bc He is Hope! I don’t want to go back to my depressed self bc I wasn’t getting anywhere. I had lost who I was and I even let my first serious relationship define me. Thank you Jesus that you took me out of that mess bc if I wasn’t strong enough I would have still been with this guy and believe it or not I’d be married by now. I know for a fact I’m not ready for that so I did what was best for me. The Lord took my chains away, my grief, the bondage that I was heavily in, and the guilt. I’m closer to God than I’ve ever been & I don’t plan on letting go. I want to grow in my faith and believe in myself again. Only my Savior can help me with that!
I just want
Flowers in my hair
Confidence in my eyes
Jesus by my side
Words that will never die
Those were my thoughts once before
Once before,
I found God again
I’ve been restored
Thus life couldn’t have been more
Beautiful